10 weeks today

I found this picture of a model baby at 10 weeks gestation. I thought that it was pretty neat!

So far I have been up and down with my morning sickness...I am mostly sick if I eat...which is odd because you usually get sick if your stomach is empty. We have out second appt next week and hopefully we will get to hear the heartbeat!

Guess What!!!

We are expecting! We have known for about a month now. I wanted to wait to tell anyone till I was out of the first trimester, but we had an ultrasound a couple of weeks ago and the Doc gave us a clean bill of health. Since we saw the heart beat, Dr said the chances of miscarriage go down dramatically. Eric was too excited to keep it from anybody anymore.

We are due Nov. 20th. My sister Stephanie is due On Halloween, so we are three weeks apart and a good friend of our family, Ashley is due 7 days after me.

The only sad thing is I am due on the same night as when the New Moon movie comes out. My sister Janel laughed and said no one would be willing to take me if I went into labor during the movie.

Maybe this one will be early like my other two! I certainly hope so if they are going to be the size of Baeya and Ethan.

Happy 100th Post!!!

So this is my 100th post! Just thought that was exciting! Here are a few projects I have been working on lately.....

Blanket



Blessing dress

Easter dress

This is Baeya Watching 102 Dalmations...she BAWLED about halfway through the movie on! It was so funny!!!

Just Wanted All to Know

Just thought you'd all like to know that my life is perfect. I have a clean house. My children are the most well behaved children ever. I am ALWAYS patient, never yeall at my kids....I LOVE THEM ALWAYS!!!! I look perfect all them time. my husband always remembers important things big and small....

Just thought you ought to know....

2009 Getting to know you

Welcome to the new 2009 edition of getting to know your family and friends. Here is what you are supposed to do, and try not to be lame and spoil the fun. Change all the answers so that they apply to you. Then send this to a bunch of people you know, INCLUDING the person who sent it to you. Some of you may get this several times; that means you have lots of friends. The easiest way to do it is to hit 'forward' so you can change the answers or copy and paste. Have fun and be truthful!I want to see your answer.

1.What is your occupation right now? Mom, Lane Bryant relief key manager

2.What color are your socks right now? What are socks, I am going NAKED...on my feet that is! :D

3.What are you listening to right now? The Wiggles(did you know they got a new yellow guy?) and my son try to pass a BM...lol

4.What was the last thing that you ate? Toasted peanut butter and honey sanny

5.Can you drive a stick shift? No, wish I could.

6.Last person you spoke to on the phone?My Lover Man...AKA Eric

7.Do you like the person who sent this to you? Of course!

8.How old are you today? 28 yrs, two months

9.What is your favorite sport to watch on TV? Football and NCAA Basketball

10.What is your favorite drink? Water with crushed ice

11.Have you ever dyed your hair? ha ha ha...so much so that at one time I forgot what my hair color was!

12.Favorite food? Italian

13.What is the last movie you watched? Twitches...I know, I am awesome!

14.Favorite day of the year? Any day i get to spent with my family.

15.How do you vent anger?ha ha ha...you don't want to know....

16.What was your favorite toy as a child?My brown and yellow bear, my cabbage patch baby...the one that looks like it has some kind of disease

17.What is your favorite season?Fall - I love all the colors

18.Cherries or Blueberries?Can I have both? What about strawberries, blackberries, the whole darn berry family! ( I stole that answer from my sister-in-law!)

19.Do you want your friends to e-mail you back? considering this is on a blog, how about re posting it?

20.Who is the most likely to respond?Renee and Tamy....since they already did it!

21.Who is least likely to respond?I would have said me. lol

22.Living arrangements? There's a chair in the corner, our bed is.....oh...um, we own our home...it's cute, you should come see it sometime.

23.When was the last time you cried? don't want to talk about on a blog

24.What's on the floor of your closet? Most of the time my kids, they like to play in there, and my clothes....they pull everything off the hangers...then the hangers make it to the floor.

25.Who is the friend you have had the longest that you are sending to? If she reads it, Nicole.

26.What did you do last night? Watched 24 with my hubby!

27.What are you most afraid of? being alone....

28.Plain, cheese, or spicy hamburgers? Spicy or spiced up? like with all the fixin's? I am a total fixin's girl...

29.Favorite dog breed? Hound dog...since she's my Keysha! BTW Eric bought another dog.

30.Favorite day of the week? Friday or Saturday, whenever we get to have a whole day together

31.How many states have you lived in? 3 states - Washington, Idaho and Colorado

32.Diamonds or pearls?Diamonds

33.What is your favorite flower? Calla lilies

It's Been a Long Time....

So here's an update in pictures of what we have been up to the last few weeks.....

Baeya cut her hair....ALL BY HERSELF.....we went and got it cut....I told her if she does it again, I was going to buzz it.

We started a new tradition this year...on Christmas eve, we decorated cookies...it was so fun! Ethan loved eating the frosting instead of decorating with it.

We celebrated Christmas...note the homemade stockings...We suprised our family in Spokane for the new year.Baeya Chopped her hair again...so I buzzed it!

Jandre(above) and Renee(below) and their 4 kids came for a visit in January.

They stayed 9 days. Alittle crazy, but so much fun...it was sad to see them leave! MISS YOU TWO!! I know your going to kill me for posting these pics, but i just had to!

I made this blanket.

We celebrated Ethan's second birthday. Can you believe that he's two? He has been so fun to have in our family! We love him SO much!

Well, that about does it for me...hopefully I'll be better at keeping up my blog.

Update

I thought that maybe we would finally let everyone know what has been happening this past month at our home. On our fifth wedding anniversary, I was pleased to announce to Eric that I was pregnant with number three. After my first doctors appointment, and confirmation, I started cramping an bleeding. I was checked several times and everything looked fine. My blood was taken twice a week for the last four weeks to test the HCG levels. It went from 99 to 86 to 338 to 398 to 536. This has been an emotional roller coaster going back and forth between yes you are and no you are not pregnant. Finally on the 12th of this month, the day after her birthday, the doctor called to confirm that we actually had lost the baby with my HCG going from the 500s to the 200s. What a great birthday gift.....



I went into surgery on Monday morning to remove the rest of the tissue with a D&C. Everything went well, and I am on the road to recovery. I should be physically recoverd tomorrow.....Emotionally, not so much...That's going to take some time.

I don't have words to explain how I feel. I can honestly say though that I am glad this is all over with. I was tired to knowing, then not knowing. At least we can FINALLY move on.

Today is my Birthday.....

My birthday was today...I didn't do anything...maybe next year will be better....
PS My husband forgot my birthday....

Thankful

I have had a really tough week. I have had so many highs and lows I am starting to feel like I am on a roller coaster. I have been elated and bitter and happy and angry and hopeful and hopeless. Mostly though I think I have been more angry than anything and it has reflected onto the way I have dealt with my kids. This morning, I was listening to Josh Groban's Christmas CD and on it there is a song called Thankful. As I listened to it, I thought of my family; my husband and my kids. I decided that even though I may be hurting right now, I need to focus on my those few things I am thankful for. I need to keep thinking positive even when I feel alone. I don't know if any of this makes sense, but it makes sense to me. I can't really put into words what I learned in the duration of this song, but It really helped me in the time i needed it most.

Thankful

Somedays we forget

To look around us

Somedays we can't see

The joy that surrounds us

So caught up inside ourselves

We take when we should give.

So for tonight we pray for

What we know can be.

And on this day we hope for

What we still can't see.

It's up to us to be the change

And even though we all can still do more

There's so much to be thankful for.

Look beyond ourselves

There's so much sorrow

It's way too late to say

I'll cry tomorrow

Each of us must find our truth

It's so long overdue

So for tonight we pray for

What we know can be

And every day we hope for

What we still can't see

It's up to us to be the change

And even though we all can still do more

There's so much to be thankful for.

Even with our differences

There is a place we're all connected

Each of us can find each other's light

So for tonight we pray for

What we know can be

And on this day we hope for

What we still can't see

It's up to us to be the change

And even though this world needs so much more

There's so much to be thankful for

Latest Project Completed

I made this dress for Baeya, just to see if I could do it....I am now working on Christmas stockings and ornaments. I will post them when they are finished.

My right to vote....and stand in line for two hours

Eric and I voted last night. And yes we stood in line for TWO HOURS!!! ......

Only to come home and find that Mr. Obama had already been announced the winner.

But it really did feel good to voice my opinion.

Somedays....

You just have to close your eyes and just shake your head....Ethan found Bayea's old tinkerbell costume on Monday. He REFUSED to take it off!!!! Should I start to worry?

Six

So this is my first one of these things that I did....

6 TV shows:
American idol
CSI Miami
Mythbusters
Fringe
Ace of cakes
Good Eats

6 Favorite Restaurants:
Craigo's
Wendy's
Ho Hut
Chicken rings store.....don't ask
My Kitchen
Breakfast club


6 Things that happened today:
Went to the temple@ 5am
had breakfast
played w/ the kids
took a nap....5 AM PEOPLE....lol
watched Enchanted for the millionth time
went on a date.....i can see into the future

6 Things I am looking forward to:
Thanksgiving
Christmas
New Years
Our 5th wedding anniv.
My mommy and daddy visiting
Eric's mommy and daddy visiting

6 Things on my wish list:
More kids
Porche Cayenne turbo....
world domination
million dollars
toilet made of solid gold
Brad Pitt would stop calling me and asking me to marry him....Doesn't he know that I am happily married?

......as you can tell...i don't ask for much....lol

6 People to tag:
Kristy
Miranda
Renee
Jandre
Kluane
Kalia

Sometimes you just need a good laugh.........

New haircut

I got my haircut yesterday.... I haven't taken any pictures of it, but this is what it looks like...

Projects....

I have been doing alot of crocheting lately these are some of my projects...

I thought that if anyone was interested, I am making blankets and hats to sell for christmas.

Preschool

Baeya started preschool last week. We are doing a program that has all the mom's of the preschoolers teaching. so you have guessed it, I am one of the teachers....poor kids....
The nice thing though is all of the kids in her class live really close together(4 of us all live on the same road). Most of the kids are also in her primary class at church.

I have to admit, it has been pretty nice just having Ethan in the mornings two times a week. He's pretty mellow, so we just hang out, have breakfast together and play alittle before sister gets home.

New BLOG

Just thought I would let you all know that I have started a new blog. You can see it on the right sidebar.

http://marysmarvelousmeals.blogspot.com/

Rantings...a woe is me blog

OK, so this is a post that'll prolly make a couple of you roll your eyes, and may get a couple of you angry, or scared of me but, these are just some honest thoughts.

There have been a couple things on my mind lately that I just want to talk about. I know I should just leave something like this for my journal, but I feel like I need to blog this.

Eric and I have been trying to get pregnant for a year now....This is a shock for those of you who are closest to us. With Baeya, we concieved her right away, but with Ethan we had to have drug intervention....I am just so frustrated because it was so easy with Baeya. Our first try and BAM she was on the way. After her my body just quit working. I don't ovulate. My body is taking my eggs hostage. I don't get it. I keep making up excuses for not being pregnant yet, like I need to loose weight first (which is probably true), or we don't want anymore, or something along those lines, but the truth is, I want another baby. I see my friends and neighbors with their babies(and believe me, around here, there are ALOT) and just ache.

I don't feel like I have the right to "whine" either because I know those who have not experienced child birth and want to so badly. I feel like I should just be happy with the children i have and just leave it be. True is though that I can actually feel my spirit aching to bring another child to this world. I now understand more clearly the meaning of "the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak."

The other thing that has bothered me lately is money. No, we are not exactly "struggling" but we are certainly tight. When I got my job it was just to create some mad money, but now it will all be going to bills. Which is fine, but the bills keep adding up. we keep accumilating bills no matter what we do. Just little things here and there and those things just keep adding up. One thing that bothers me is that we are paying a hefty amount per month on tithing. I feel like that money could be better used on catching up on bills. It's hard to see that money go when I don't feel like we are getting the "blessings" that are suppose to come. It's hard when you know a person who doesn't have the same standards as you who doesn't pay tithing, and see them complaining about all the extra money they are getting. They have "too much to know what to do with." It torks my toes!

I don't know, I guess I am just on a spiritual low. It's hard for me because I am doing all the things you are "suppose" to do, but I am just can't shake it. I am not a typical church member; my house isn't clean, my kids don't behave most of the time, I yell at my kids (which I am positive why half of my neighbors don't talk to me), I have different theological ideals than most members, I get angry, I have a past, I have questions...and yet through it all, have a close relationship with Christ. I don't see myself as a bad member.

My New Job

A few months ago, Eric and I had a talk about me getting a part time job. Just a few hours a week to have a little "me" time and to have adult interaction...plus the bonus of getting paid while I am out.

So a couple weeks ago I submitted my application to Lane Bryant here in IF down Hitt road close to the movie theaters. I got the job. I am going to be working evenings and weekends.

I started last week on Wednesday, I watched a bunch of training videos and helped with the closing.

Saturday was my second day and the store got REALLY busy! Baptism by fire can only describe that day. We were so busy we had a line for the dressing rooms and there are six of them!!!

I think what I enjoy most about Lane Bryant is that their product is really good! I have close that are about 8 years old and they stil seem new.