Friday, March 7, 2008

Wits End

I think I am at my wits end! For the last few days I have had to be the only adult in my home. Eric has been home from work with the flu! I understand that when you are sick there isn't much you can do, but when he gets sick it's like I have not only Baeya and Ethan to take care of but when Eric gets sick it's like adding on three more kids!!! I have been stretched to my limit! I feel like there just isn't enough time in the day to do all that I need to. If you notice, most of my entries are in the wee hours of the morning. I a typical day I: cook, clean, wipe noses, cook three meals a day, make snacks, do laundry, pay bills, run errands, resolve diagreements, do laundry, change diapers, give baths, take out the garbage, entertain the kids, etc. Plus according to many women I know, I am required to do all this with a smile. Those who know me know that that's just not happening. The sad thing is; I go to bed at 4am and wake up at eight and do it all over again. My job is never done!!! And again with Eric being sick, I have no support. I have been doing everything myself and frankly these last few days I have been lacking.

Today I think was the last straw. For those of you who don't know, I have chronic back problems. And it gets worse with stress. So today I was in tears with pain. Luckily, I had something I could take, and everyone was asleep so I had ALITTLE quiet time.

There are things I would like to do, like paint and decorate my room, or work on the basement, but when the kids go down I have to clean up after them and get the things done that didn't get done while the kids needed to be taken care of. Then it doesn't even look like anything was cleaned 15minutes after the kids wake up.

I think all I need is a maid and a nanny and I would be happy, right? :D


Heather said...

you have to see this...

Renee' said...

Oh, Mary I'm sorry. I know how big of a baby Eric can be when he's sick. Just like DAD!
Just cause you're a stay-at-home mom doesn't mean you have to have a smile on your face all the time.
This is the hardest job ever! You're doing a great job. It's a lot to just move into your first home and try to get settled in a new town, & still play the perfect role.
I would suggest getting more sleep than you do. Maybe you need a prescription for sleeping pills!
Hope your back feels better.
Love your guts!

Kelli said...

I'm pretty sure that the moms who do all that with a smile on their face have managed to wrangle some sort of illegal drugs into their possession. I hear it from all women and know from personal experience that having a sick husband is worse than having sick kids! They are so needy and whiney and grumpy! It's always soooo much worse for them than it is for you too;)

Oh Mary I feel your pain girl! Sometimes when life is like this you have to say, "screw the house!" and just do what you gotta do for a while to get by. Give yourself permission to not be perfect!
Good news too is that it's getting closer and closer to warmer weather which means kids outside and going to the park and less grumpiness.

Like Renee said, Give yourself a break, this is the hardest job ever! You are doing great and part of this job is realizing that sometimes it really really really sucks BIG TIME!!! :D Good news is that it will give you little rewards here and there to help keep you from going over the edge;)


The Barney's said...

Hello miss mary fosburg- Lori Barney here! I am so glad that you left a comment on my blog. I finally updated it! I am always glad to know that all moms have their "wits end" days but i feel like i have a few more with 3 crazy busy kids. and my house is not near as clean as it used to be with no kids or just 1 and yes, laundry is a NEVER ending battle here too! you're just so normal but i am so sorry about your back, that just makes it even harder. love lori