I think I am at my wits end! For the last few days I have had to be the only adult in my home. Eric has been home from work with the flu! I understand that when you are sick there isn't much you can do, but when he gets sick it's like I have not only Baeya and Ethan to take care of but when Eric gets sick it's like adding on three more kids!!! I have been stretched to my limit! I feel like there just isn't enough time in the day to do all that I need to. If you notice, most of my entries are in the wee hours of the morning. I a typical day I: cook, clean, wipe noses, cook three meals a day, make snacks, do laundry, pay bills, run errands, resolve diagreements, do laundry, change diapers, give baths, take out the garbage, entertain the kids, etc. Plus according to many women I know, I am required to do all this with a smile. Those who know me know that that's just not happening. The sad thing is; I go to bed at 4am and wake up at eight and do it all over again. My job is never done!!! And again with Eric being sick, I have no support. I have been doing everything myself and frankly these last few days I have been lacking.
Today I think was the last straw. For those of you who don't know, I have chronic back problems. And it gets worse with stress. So today I was in tears with pain. Luckily, I had something I could take, and everyone was asleep so I had ALITTLE quiet time.
There are things I would like to do, like paint and decorate my room, or work on the basement, but when the kids go down I have to clean up after them and get the things done that didn't get done while the kids needed to be taken care of. Then it doesn't even look like anything was cleaned 15minutes after the kids wake up.
I think all I need is a maid and a nanny and I would be happy, right? :D