I don't know why, but today was just so BAD!!! To start off, I was just in a mood today! i don't know why, I'm not suppose to start anytime soon...so that can't be it...and NO I am not pregnant! I was just on edge all morning! I yelled at Eric because he wanted me to pick up the unpacking mess we had made the night before and I had not even begun to get ready for chirch yet. He made a couple of comments in the midst of all of this that just made me SNAP! I won't tell you what I said to protect the innocent. At church today; Baeya and Ethan were TERRORS!! Ethan doesn't know how to be quiet for the life of him, so I spent ALL of sacrement meeting in the hall with him. I don't know if it's the new area we are in or what but Baeya is going through a phase of "I don't want to go to Sunbeams!" and throws a tantrum! She too was a pill at church. I just don't know what to do about these kids.
don't get me wrong I love my kids, but I don't think I have a time away from them since Eric and I came back from California. That's over 6 months! I guess I just have a problem asking people to watch my kids. Not that I'm not trusting, I just don't want to put anyone out. I think it stems from me being my family's designated babysitter for so long and I hate that "People" "assume" that we are going to ask them to sit with the kids, so we just don't go out.
I could go out by myself but now I feel guilty leaving Eric with the kids because he has such a hard shift. He wakes at 4am and gets home at 6pm. It's hard.